Pangungulila

puspos ng pangungulila yaring aking mundo,
ninanais balikan nuo'y kamusmusan ko.
duon ka lamang nasilayan ng todo.
duon ko lamang narinig ang tono ng boses mo
sa bawat pag-awit ng lullaby na ikaw mismo ang syang may likha.
noon ko lamang nadama pag-ibig mo, init ng yakap mo
na nagpapatunay sa pag-aaruga ng husto.

Sayo ako unang natutong sumulat ng mga letrang
G.e.n.a.l.y.n A. M.a.l.a.c.a.t, dahil sayo
ako'y unang bumilang ng isa, dalawa, tatlo...
gumalang sa pagsasabing po at opo.
malabo man sa isipan, ngunit tiyak kong
sa pamamagitan mo'y una na akong humalakhak ng
pagkasarap-sarap.

nakakapangulila ang pakiramdam ng nasa iyong
mga bisig; pagkakayupyop nitong ulo sa iyong
kandungan at pagkakayakap nitong bisig sa iyong
malusog na pangangatawan.
nakakapangulila bawat palo ng iyong mga palad,
sa tuwina'y nag-papasaway, na di kalaunan'y hahaplusin
ng banayad mong mga kamay, patunay lamang na ako'y di kayang tiisin.

mga ngiti mo'y sadyang naikintal na sa isipan,
pagmamahal mo'y naiukit na sa aking puso.
pag-aaruga at pag-kalinga mo'y nadarama sa tuwina.

oh sadayang kay sarap balikan ng pagkamusmos
kung saan'y nakita kang may buhay, magsigla at may hininga pa
aking mahal na ina...
sana'y ang limang taon sa piling mo,
naging pang habang buhay na lamang..
ngunit tiyak kong ikaw muling makakapapiling
sa paraiso nang lubus-lubusan...

-Maskara-

Isang mapag-balatkayong pagkatao
Ang siyang sumambulat,
Pilit mong tinakpan ng maskarang mapanlinlang…
Mapagbalatkayong katauha’y tuluyang natakpan;
Sa balintataw ay natanaw ang kahapong puno ng kasiyahan,
Animo’y mga ibong, sa paraiso’y may layang makalipad.
Bawat saglit ay ninamnam, bawat yapos ng hangi’y dinama.
May pananabik sa bawat pag-kampay.
Ni sa sinag ng araw ‘y di mabanaag anumang anino ng pagkatao.
Iniwaglit ang isipan sa mainit na sikat ng araw.
Patuloy sa pakikipag-laro sa ibong maskarado.
Nitong huli’y tuluyan nang nilamon ng dilim ang liwanag,
Na kanina pa’y tirik sa pagsikat.
Nandilim ang pakigid, at sa kadiliman ng gabi duo’y
Nalantad ang pagkataong sa maskara’y nagkukubli.
Pagkawindang sa sarili’y naikintal;
Nag-uunahan sa pag-agos yaring mga luha at pait ay nadama.
Isang mapanlinlang, na sa maskara’y nagkukubli,
Ang syang nakadaupang-palad…

Loving with Absession!!!

Loving with Obsession

I been longing for your love
since the time you broke my heart
grieving inside, can't stop,
all I want is for you to come back.

Waking up in the morning,
feels like naked,feeling of agony,
still bother me that much..
It's hard to accept that you left me behind.

My system is shutting down,
I am walking through darkness,
seems to be so fine outside,
but the pain is killing me inside.

At first, Lots of promises you spoken
my heart rejoice hearing those,
expectation arises on my part.
now it's blurry to be in hand.

I say I love you,
and you say you love me too!
when I say, I missed you,
still you've been so responsive.

You say what I want to hear,
you do what I want to see,
but it's never been your choice!
my mistake,'coz I commanded you.

I want to take care of you,
I want you to feel how much you've love,
I wanna grow old with you,
'till the skin get wrinkled.

I have this feeling,
that you have someone else.
but I didn't entertain all the thoughts
I want to believe your words.

No one is to be blame,
is it wrong to love someone like you?
maybe because were just living
in a wrong time and at the wrong place.

Loving you is easy to do,
but forgetting you is so harsh.
I love you with all my heart,
'till nothing's left for my self.

Holding you is never been the answer
giving you up might be,
but how can I be?, when I don't want to?
I don't wanna lose you so badly...

BY: GHEN

Pinoy are great but they are suck too!!!

It is true that We Filipino "Pinoy" are great in so many things, Why? (Well I can't mention them all...,but I know that you already know what are those greatest things of being a Filipino I am talking.) That is why other races are amazed of Us.(well, not all!) But even though sometimes they call us little people or small people, the fact is, they're amazed on Us, in the things we do.. In our motivation and how determined we are in different field of life... not of being brag, but its true.
I am Ghen and I love to be a Filipino, because We are World class!!! just like the Influenza A-H1N1 that is spreading around the world.(laughing)
But sadly, sometimes I don't wanna be a Filipino... because unconsciously! Filipinos are suck too!!! and because of that I hate to be a Filipino...
I am 21 years of age, my alias is Ghen and my height is 5'0 Feet flat(I can't tell further details!)
How come did I say That Filipinos are suck too? well based on my experience with my countymen..Most of them was so Idealistic!! instead of being realistic minded...that is why I hate it so much!!!
Lately I went around anD basically I was looking for a job because I am badly desperate to have a job. but, you know what happen? those Employer that I tried to applied with, was so picky.. Why? because they have this height requierement, (did I typed it wrong?)No! your read it right! (so, what can you expect? I got failed) and after that .. I was like!! "What the Hell???" "Why are they so picky I have the skill, why they can't try me and give me a chance? even though I don't have any experience yet??"..Why are you people are so picky when it comes to height? are you discriminating your on race? What do you expect? We are Filipinos and most of our people are small...
I already went out of the country and stay there for nine months. I just noticed that they are not in to height requirement on looking for a applicant that can fit in the work..in most of the work... and to think that many FIlipinos are around the world, working in the country that most of people are Giants rather to say taller than us..but hte height is never been the problem to them.
That is why I said earlier that Filipinos are so Idealistic!!! Wake up people! try to look around!! Is it the appearance that knocks it all? rather than the skills of the people?
Well the Government must really striving to focus on the people's need, specially on the Jobs.. because we are experiencing a GLOBAL CRISIS. but I hope that, they will be fair enough.!!
It's funny to say these things ... But Guys when you are planning to take a course ! be sure that the profession you are taking, does not have a height requirements. specially when you're planning to work for local jobs!!bear that in mind..
Be a realistic and be open minded .. open wide!!! It's your KABABAYAN who's gonna be your customers and the one that you'll serving with anyway not the other races...
I wrote this just to lessen my sentiments.. Pity to those like me... who does not have the abbundance of height when the God pour it out on to the Earth.(laughing out loud!)
But seriously every person has their own skills! so, don't just look into a person's appearance...

As I leave you a quotation like this...

"Nasa panlabas na anyo ba ng isang tao nakadipende ang kanyang pagiging mabuting tao, mamamayan at manggagawa????"

Buhay.. buhay! buhay?

Ang buhay ng tao ay mistulang palaisipan,
kung iyong hustong susuriin iyong masisilayan
mga hiwagang bumabalot.
sa patuloy na pakikipaglakbay-diwa ng ating kaisipan,
sa pag-hahanap ng nawawalang piraso ng palaisipan,
sa pag-hahanap ng mga kasagutan,sa bawat kakatanungan,
nagugulumihanang pag-iisip ang syang hahandulong.
sa bawat pag-kunot ng nuo,
sa pag-tatagis ng bagang,
sa mapanlilisik na titig,
mistulang liyon na kay bangis,
ngunit sa loob animoy kandilang unti-unting nalulusaw;
sa mainit na ningas ng apoy na siyang sumisimbulo sa pait ng kapalaran.

Sa pag-buo ng palaisipan, gayun pa man sa pag-buo
ng bawat pahina ng ating buhay, may magsisilbing susi sa
pag-tuklas at pag-buo ng palaisipan ng buhay!
sa pag-tuklas mo ng bawat piraso doon mo makukuha kung
ano ang totoong anyo ng larawan... Sa bawat pag-tuklas
doon mo mahihikayat ang sarili na tumuklas pa!
hanggang sa ang iyong mga mata ay tuluyang mandilim.

Ang buhay ay mistulang palaisipan na
kinakailangan ng ibayong pag-iisip,
kaunting pag-kalito mo lamang ay maaaring ikasira ng nasimulan na,
gayun din sa pag-lagay ng isang pirasong di eksakto sa
sukat na dapat sanay duo'y nakakabit.
Sa kaunting pag-kakamali mo lamang ay pinsalang pagkalaki-laki ang hantungan.

Oo nga, sa makatuwid, inihahambing ko ang buhay nang
bawat tao sa isang palaisipan...
ang buhay ay mistulang palaisipan;
sa patuloy na pag-buo mo nito, sa kabila ng kapighatian,
unti-unting mag-bibigay ng linaw
at mag-hahatid kasiyahan sa bawat hiwatig na iyong
matuklasan, sa tiyaga at dedikasyon mo sa mga gawa,
upang mabuo ang lahat ng piraso ayun sa tamang kinalalagyan ng
bawat isa; Isang pagkaganda-ganda at makahulugang larawan
na duo'y tutunghay sa iyo, at duon mo madarama ang tunay na
kaligayahan, kahulugan at kapasidad ng buhay mo.

THE RIGHT ONE! - LOVE-

Based on my survey! 6 out of 10 people agree that LOVE is the most interesting topic among the rest, and only 4 says that it was something else!!! not bad result, I would say.
It is indeed interesting for some reason. Different kind of person relate to this topic no matter what races and their culture are.
It is difficult for somebody to search for someone out there who's willing to be with them for the rest of their life and love them as no one could ever do! and able to stand whoever he is or how devil he is to others!
We always fall-in-love sure! because we are created by love, capable to love and to be love! but of course it's not easy, isn't? Love has it's peak of happiness and always has pain in it. When love strike our way, there's no escape at all, and when once we stop and trying to kill it, the more complicated it will be!
We are all searching for the right one; unfortunately, sometimes when we keep on seeking for that someone, the more elusive it is. We are meeting heaps of people! Unconsciously, in our daily life, even when we are just walking along the street,whether in a shopping mall, in the park, or we are in a pub. (bars), cinema, and other public places. or even in a cyber world!!! the world of the chat rooms in the internet. And of course we're sure that we will meet someone there, who'll stand-out among others; you may attract to one person instantly!; You will approach him and you will have this thought to get to know him... Asking for his details! once you feel a connection in him.. And that's the start!!! later on you'll go out as a friend or even better, because things happens so quick for the two of you,you have now a mutual understanding, lead you to becoming boyfriend/girlfriend in just a snap of a finger?cool!!! yeah, now a days time flies so quickly that you may not have notice things turn out to something momentarily, that it is possible for someone you meet an hour ago and later on he's already your mate! but it doesn't end there! The longer you've spent time together and the more you've get to know him, the more affection you get!when the connection between you and him is going well, the deeper attention it will be.
then dating ... dating ... dating ... love... love ... love ... love !!!!! L.O.V.E - LOVE
At this point we thought that.. "this is it".... "He is perfect", "I finally found him", "He is the right one", " I love him so much!", "I can't imagine a life without him" but..STOP......................... -I will say NO!!!!!!
Then here you go... after a week? (may be a week is ridiculous) maybe a month/s or years later? What will happen, you think? There will be a big bomb out of your way! that will suddenly explode... that even a concrete and metal material will destroy!
Life's changes so fast! so there's no assurance, there could be a catastrophe that will distract your way, you know what i mean? I know you do!.... There could be lots of instances why?! maybe his love vanished in time, maybe his getting bored, maybe he met someone else or probably you are miles apart to each other, that at first it may not seems a problem in your relationship but as time passes by it's getting dull and suddenly you may get tired in a long-distance relationship and you'll think that it will not gonna work that way!. And that's the end!!!
I concluded...in our minds we assume things that they will be the one whom we'll get old with.... The one that we're looking for so long.. but sadly they weren't the right one that we've been looking for!.... The phase of mending will come and again just like a cycle of a hands clock we're going to look for someone again! THE RIGHT ONE....

As I leave a quotation like this......

"Sometimes, One's touches
our life, so gently....
just like a wind
gliding beneath us
...but just like a wind
they'll blew away...
so quickly,
too late to recognized
that they're gone
as our dreams vanished too.
by:ghen

"Ate"

"Ate"

Walang pagsidlan kagalakan sa damdamin,
kung paano ang tulad mo'y mistulang anghel sa kalangitan,
mga gawa at katangian mo'y di mapaparisan,
nino mang nilalang dito sa sanlibutan.

Nuon ay kay layo ng agwat,
ngayo'y ga dipa na lamang sa pag-salibat.
pangunawa mo ang siyang tanging hiling,
sa katigasan nitong bungong paking.

Ako'y nanganganlong sa iyong kandungan,
magmula nang humagip yaong buhawi,kaya naman,
pasasalamat ko'y iyong tanggapin,
pagmamahal ko'y iyong akapin.

Buo ang pag-mamalaki dahil ikaw ang "Ate" ko!
sa lahat ng iyong pagod at sakripisyo,
sadyang kay palad ko't ikaw ang "Ate" ko!
bukod tangi kang totoo..

Authors Foreword:

This poem! again written in tagalog language is tribute to my sister.
i love them all! I just thought if I can make a poem out of anyone else.why not to them? so I wrote this poem to show my appreciation in all the things they have done to me...!!!