I cant remember when was the last time I cried because im happy, I laughed for joy, I jumped because of happiness and have been love without any further reason at all but i was being loved, by someone I was longing to be with.
These past few months of my life I was in pedestal of happiness. have been blessed to be with my family here in
While I am here, there's a lot of things happened and it changed my life completely. Now I have been given a chance to taste the other way of life afar from i used to have before.
We are all happy; finally we're reunited as a family.
But there's still missing and I can't figure it out. What is missing? I’m searching for an answer.
Until one day I'd go online to the xat.com, that time I've met random chatter who is bored, addicted to chat and some were seeking for companion thru online chatting like me.
For some reason people are getting addictive to online chat, so as I. It just like nicotine, once you've tried it and get used to it, it’s hard to let go off. But that's not my point! going back..
Time passed by and I met heaps of chatters with different personality but have a common trip in life... I fell a touched to those few, and treat them as a brotherhood. And I can't explain why? But there is a connection between us.
I met same Chatters online everyday for the last six months. I've known them for their alias and a little background about them, that they have been shared with me.
After a month, Andy become a good friend of mine, We had this same sense of humor but we are completely opposite in many ways. He became my best friend and yet my best enemy.
Simultaneously, I've met other friends like Bryan, Chris, Blonde, Katie, Den, Jhen, Angel Mae, Josh, Angel and etc.
I fell in love with Andy "I admit" but during that time he was engaged to someone, so he rejected me! And the rest was history.
Chris was also a friend, to young for me but he courted me, after he got separated to her ex girlfriend, but it took a while before I say yes to him.
Blonde is blonde. LoL she is a nice lady! And just like my other sis in xat she's cool.. I also like to mention three ladies named Den, Katie and Jhen.. They’re there for me when i feel so down and low. These ladies are my shoulder to lie on. Den is a funny girl. She always makes me laugh. katie is sweet person as well as Jhen! I wanna meet them all.
Josh..What can i say about him? hahah his sweet!!! Caring, Gentleman and funny as well.
And oops ... how can I forget Angel a.k.a Bambino, Mr. kulangot sa pader, Mr. Brightside and etc.? They always brighten up my day every morning I've went online.
Angel has something inside him that you would loved it, just how I love it too... an extraordinary guy. "He’s the highlight of this". They're my entire friend for a long time. "Well it's not that long but for a chat it is a long time". I remember Angel, when the first time he appears on xat.com, he was confused then, what was the xat for? and the other stuff of it. Josh and I thought that that he was a girl because of his name "Angel", that time he doesn't have picture in his avatar, so we thought he is a girl! But he’s not. He has a bird.
Every time I get back to those memories I always end up laughing! It is insane. Those men are awesome!! Angel rocks my world!!!
Angel courted me after few weeks but I rejected him. Why? Because, I wanna be his friend for a life time. 'coz right then I knew that it would be hard when things end up as most of affairs did in history of many lovers. He tried again to seduce me when Chris an I were still, but I said "NO" to him because I don't wanna cheat with Chris. But the problem came up in our way. Chris and I broke up. and our relationship lasted for three weeks. It is messed up and a wasted of time with Chris because for some reason that you wouldn't want to know.
After my broke-up with Chris, when the time I saw Angel online, I didn't had second thought and took the opportunity to courted him then, yes I was the one courted him that time. Right then I realized that I have been loved this man. But I kept it inside, that even myself didn't noticed. I always said to myself that I wanna keep this man forever. Then we became lovers! At last... it is perfect! I thought! but then it wasn't seems to be that perfect! We lasted for 2 months, 17 hours and 44 minutes. My world was melted when he became cold as ice on the Antarctic! I am madly in love with him. Until now!!! I knew that we will end up like this. I knew it. That is why I'm afraid to have this something especial relationship with him in a first place. But I have no regrets because I know, I shown enough and the best that I can give to him, my sincerity of love and care for him, even though we're a thousand miles away from each other. I love him, just like he was here at my side and not thinking what the boundaries are. I love to meet him someday! But what chances? Were both Dead....
indeed, I still hoping for a miracle....
I will consider these things happened to be as a Life that was for temporary...
I finally found what I've been searching for! But it was for temporary..
Loving someone and be loved by someone even for that very short time I found happiness, for an ages now...I smiled without any reason but im an happy.
Happy in a sense that I was in love and was been loved by someone that I've been longing to be with. It wasn't last long as I want it to be; perhaps, now i finally have an idea of it!! Idea of what it is been missing in me!
